I am so freaking OUT!

You are NEVER going to believe what happened today. I went to the doctor's for my weekly progesterone shot (they start them at week 20 through weeks 36). After waiting in the lobby area for like 1/2 hour the nurse put me in a room and put the shot and chart down and said she would be back. So - the lab tech came by and was talking to me and she went ahead and gave me the shot so I wouldn't have to wait any longer. Turns out it was the wrong shot. The other nurse had brought the wrong one in - and they gave me estrogen instead of progesterone. Todd and I of course googled this and here is the lovely news:

“Estradiol is in the FDA pregnancy category X. This means that estradiol is known to cause birth defects in an unborn baby. Do not take this medication if you are pregnant or could become pregnant during treatment.”

"ESTROGENS SHOULD NOT BE USED DURING PREGNANCY. Estrogen therapy during pregnancy is associated with an increased risk of congenital defects in the reproductive organs of the male and female fetus, an increased risk of vaginal adenosis, squamous cell dysplasia of the uterine cervix, and vaginal cancer in the female later in life."

"Studies of women who received diethylstilbestrol (DES) during pregnancy have shown that female offspring have an increased risk of vaginal adenosis, squamous cell dysplasia of the uterine cervix, and clear cell vaginal cancer later in life; male offspring have an increased risk of urogenital abnormalities and possibly testicular cancer later in life. "

The doctor wasn't there - but the head nurse said she didn't know what would happen and to watch for bleeding… yeah - so I am FREAKING OUT.

Action plan: Tomorrow I am going to call my doctor and ask him about the risks of this having happened. Then I am going to call the specialist that I see once a month and ask him too. Then I am going to wish to God that I could get drunk...because, my babies could be born with man boobs. Which of course is silly - but seriously - all of the googling is bad and I wish I had not ever searched for anything. I wish I had remained blissfully anaware of the risks.

When I left the doctor's office today, I was not at all freaked out. I told my husband that what happened happened and there is nothing I can do about it, so I am not going to get upset about it. It was an honest mistake and could have happened to anyone. Hell, think about the mistakes we make every day. What if every time I made a mistake at work someone died or a baby was born with a defect - oh man the world would be full of some odd looking babies. The lab tech that gave the shot was crying, hysterical - so upset about what happened. Now I am the hysterical one. Damn, this sucks.