I Am

I am curious and hopeful
I wonder what my life would be like if I had been more assertive as a child
I hear wet sand crunching beneath my feet
I see waves crashing on the beach, surrounded by a lightening-filled sky
I want to stop feeling like a Slinky, being pulled in all different directions
I am strong and decisive

I pretend that nothing bothers me
I feel as small as a grain of sand in this huge world
I touch life with apprehensive hands
I worry that I am not good enough
I am concerned and anxious

I understand what happiness feels like
I say there is a god
I dream of knowing exactly the right thing to say and do
I try to be more every day - better, smarter, someone people can be proud of
I hope that I am a good wife, mother, person
I am
curious and hopeful